You are beautiful though caitlin I wish you say you through my eyes.And Ii just saw this reply now -_- so sorry for late answer pahahha. And don't feel weird I used to and still do talk to the voices in my head, my walls, and teddy bears we are on the same page with that.I don't find it weird.
Even if you don't look at some point it will find you, it'll come to you when you are unsuspecting or when you absolutely need it most, you might think that is now but i'm not to sure. But you don't need it enough yet for it to find its way to you. When I first got to my preschool/kindergarden people pushed me off the tall slide, they made fun of my smile, kicked me and threatened me constantly. I still get bullied now kids in my building and some online see me or message me and call me fat, ugly, worthless, tell me I should; cut myself, kill myself, drink bleach, that no one loves me, no one cares about me, no one would care if I was dead. The bullying gets worse everyday I hold grudges as you can tell over little things like that one against katrina and stupid stuff like that. What do you mean by stuff you'll never have, i'm just not too sure what you mean by that.. A lot of people care about you, wehn you cry and I'm helping you priscilla feels really bad and wants to help in any way, cassie always wants to fight to help you and make you happy, katrina is the same she wants to comfort you in any way, along with natalie, eryka, johanna, cindy, alexiya hates how she can barely help, tyriek always wonders about you and then there is me..and anyone else that cares that I don't know of. They all ask where you are, how are you doing, if you are okay, when you are coming to school, if any body hurt you, if you hurt yourself. people care, slot more than you might think they do. I wish you could tell me EVERYTHING and I just want to help you caitlin, I want to break down and cry when I cant stupid I know. But I want to help you, I want to get you a normal home, with people who care about you love you and want to help you and get meals and stuff, I wish I could just do that .. oops i'm crying oh well It's just my emotions cailtin I care so much for you Idon't even know how to express it in words I would do anything to help you through anything. just know that I guess..

Its impossible I truly don't believe when others say that. acne I have it but yeah it isn't bad and whatever I do have is blocked as best as possible, You're skinny as well. You weigh so much less than me gah . My hair isnt that pretty really its shaved woop I don't think its that cool, but Ii really like yours cause its my old style and I want it like that again and can't get it and with the blueish color ;o; and black it looks so pretty *_* just my opinion i guess.. my arms bug the shit out of me thats why i try to keep my sweaters on as much as possible unless its way to hot and i cant take it anymore. There's nothing wrong with your arms , but if you hate them its another insecurity and I have it too so at least we are the same on that? i guess.Having a girlfriend doesn't just boost your confidence, i mean they usually make it a little better but it doesn't get better or cured so easily. I can't go by what othes say cause 99% are the same people who bully me at other times have bullied me or usually bring me down and are attempting to be nice. 1% of them mean it but yeah... It's just not what I see..

Thanks so much!

I know you weren't Kaylee, but not to be rude (I promise I'm not trying to be rude)- You don't have it. You take pictures of yourself. One of the major things about BDD is people with that disorder don't use anything that will allow them to see themselves. Oh, and you know how you think you're ugly? (You aren't!) But you see your face. I literally see a deformed monster. I'm not lying. I see something deformed, hideous, like the Crypt Keeper. At first, I didn't believe this was real, because everytime I see my face I see a monster, so how could those images be fake? I still believe it isn't. What I see in the mirror, in pictures, has to be the real deal because of the fact that I've been seeing a monster since I was six. And it's also why I'm so jealous of you and Alexyia. I'm always, always, ALWAYS comparing myself to others. No one in this world is ugly, is deformed, except for me. And BDD can't be self-diagnosed. Since it's so rare, only professionals can tell if people have it. I don't have mirrors, Kaylee. I have no pictures of myself on my phone. I deleted pictures of myself from practically every site I go on. Oh, and my social Anxiety has a lot to do with BDD. I literally cry at the thought of going out in public,because I don't want anyone to see my face. In my life, two people have asked me out. A boy named Erik, and a boy named Steve.. I didn't go on any of them because I don't want them to look at me. It's why I refuse to look people in the eye. It's a big reason why I'm terrified of people. It's a big reason why a part of me hates every person on this Earth. But you, you're very pretty. And you're confident enough to have a girlfriend, you look people in the eye (at school at least) And you wear shorts, dresses, things like that. Because of BDD, (Because of how hideous I am) I will never be able to have/do those things. I will never have a bf/gf, I will never wear anything that doesn't cover my entire body. Tank-tops included.It's impossible for me to look people in the eye. And you're outgoing. I'm so hideous, I can't look at people! That's what BDD is, and that's who I am. You're pretty Kaylee, and you definitely don't have BDD. I just want you to know that you are pretty, so BDD isn't very likely to happen to you. Oh, and I did, but now they're doing things I don't like....